I see him through the large swarm of people. He stands alone,
completely still. His eyes, black, swallow me whole as he stares at me. I can’t
move. My heart has frozen over and my blood has turned to ice. He begins to
walk towards me. Each step he takes breaks me further. I try to scream out, but
no sound leaves my mouth. The ice has spread to my throat. He stops in front of
me, so close that I can feel his warm breath on my skin. He opens his mouth to
speak.
And the words, like poison, drip from his lips.
I see her through the large swarm of people. She is completely still,
her deep blue eyes wild with fear. I could not imagine anything more beautiful.
I begin to walk towards her. I can see that she wants to run, to scream for
help, but it’s like she doesn’t know how. A deer caught in the headlights. I
stop in front of her. Her long, blonde hair catches in the artificial light and
it takes everything in me to resist reaching out and touching it. I open my
mouth to speak.
She drinks in my words, cringing as if they were poison.
I see them both through the large swarm of people. They stare at each
other across the crowd, both completely still. Their eyes connect, his full of
power and hers full of fear. She doesn’t move a muscle as he begins to walk
towards her, people parting for him as he does. He stops in front of her, so
close that their chests almost touch. He opens his mouth to speak, not breaking
eye contact for even a second. Once he has spoken, he receives a small nod of
her head in reply, and he laces his arm around her waist possessively. She says
nothing as he walks her out of the building.
The last thing I see before the door closes behind them is the curl of
his fingers, gripping her side like he’s never going to let go.
He leads me towards a car. It’s black, like his eyes. As I breathe in,
his smell hits me and I wince at the sickly sweet odour. It wafts up into my
nose and is so strong I can practically taste it in my mouth. It took me wash
after wash to completely rid my clothes of that smell the last time I saw him.
He opens the back left door of the car. His lips form a cruel smile as he eases
me inside and shuts it again. As he walks round to the driver’s seat, I test
the handle. Locked. It has to be opened from the outside. I rest my head in my
hands, closing my eyes. The slam of his door is a concluding one.
He’ll never let me get away with this.
I lead her towards the car awaiting us. Something makes her wince,
whether it be the pressure of my fingers on her side, or even the thought of
what she hopes to be untrue; what I need from her. She is a smart girl, she’ll
work it out. I smile down at her as I ease her into the car; she doesn’t smile
back. Again, I have the urge to touch a strand of her hair, so beautiful in the
light of the morning sun. Instead, I walk round to the driver’s seat. When I
get in, I see that her head is now in her hands, shielding her face from my
vision. Is she crying? No, she has too much pride to do that in front of me.
But a small gasp still escapes her lips when I slam my door.
She knows that she’ll never get away with this.
He leads her towards a car. I move through the crowd of people still
mingling, all of them oblivious to her, oblivious to him. All except me. Being
sure to stay back far enough that I don’t draw attention, I watch him as he
eases her inside the car. Even from this distance I still catch the cruel smile
he flashes her before he walks round to the driver’s side and climbs in
himself. He hesitates for a moment before shutting his door. When he does, the
loud slam is followed by the gentle roar of the engine as it is awakened. I
watch the car disappear into the distance, getting smaller and smaller until I
can no longer see it.
He’d better not let her get away with this.
The trill of a ringtone breaks our silence. He reaches into his pocket
and draws the mobile out, not looking away from the road. After glancing down
at the screen momentarily, he holds it to his ear. In the rear-view mirror, I
watch his eyes narrow slightly.
He listens for a few seconds.
“I do.”
A pause for a few seconds more.
“I won’t.”
He slips the phone back into his pocket.
His eyes catch mine in the mirror and I
immediately shift my head to look out the window. Flashes of trees and road
signs pull my focus as I attempt to concentrate on anything but him.
The only other person who knows. I hope.
The trill of my ringtone breaks my
thoughts. I was thinking of her. Or rather, what she can give me. Recently I
haven’t thought about anything else. I glance at the screen of my mobile and,
after viewing the name, pick up. The voice that greets me is one I am all too
familiar with.
“You have her?”
“I do.”
“Don’t let me down.”
“I won’t.”
The caller hangs up.
Her eyes, still panicked, catch mine
when I check the rear-view mirror. She immediately shifts her head. She’s
probably been watching my eyes the whole time we’ve been in the car; she knows
how much they give away about a person. But then why doesn’t she realise how
much hers reveal to me?
She’s hoping I’m the only other person
who knows. I wish I was.
On the other end of the line, the trill
of his ringtone lasts too long for my liking. I scuff my boots on the gravel
for a few moments, impatient. When he eventually picks up, I don’t ponder.
“You have her?” I know that he does.
“I do.”
“Don’t let me down.” I know that he
won’t.
“I won’t.”
I hang up.
After moving across the car park, I slip
into my car. I’m surprised he didn’t notice it here. He had no idea I was even
watching him. Pulling out of the parking space, I glance at the glass doors of
the airport’s entrance. Didn’t anybody ever tell her that you shouldn’t run
away from your problems? They always
catch up with you in the end, and in this case they intercepted before she had
even managed to get away.
I bet she’s hoping that he is the only
other person who knows. She’s wrong; I know too.